August 13, 2024 Blog Entry - EXILE

The thought of having to deal with the undisciplined ways of men with the world around them brings so much pain and exhaustion. I have been away from you for far too long, my Lord. How long will I have to be in this desolate place? Is this how things are going to go for the rest of my years? When will be you take me to be by your side, O Lord? This exile is just way too painful. The thought that I am far from you brings tears to my eyes, it hurts me down to the very core of my bones. Every single day I witness the wretchedness of men, much worse I behold my own wretchedness. Thinking of the sins I committed against you and my fellow men, makes me feel so much shame, makes me feel so much pain. Do I deserve to be with you, O Lord? But, I know despite my undeserving nature, through your great mercy, you will heal me and qualify me to be deserving in your sight and for this, I thank you, O Lord.

Be with me at all times, O Lord. Take the blindness of my eyes and make me see the good in every thing and in every day. So that even in the midst of this exile, through your grace and mercy, I will do good that I may see your face soon in the land of the living.