Sometimes, To Love Someone, You Gotta Be A Stranger

This was a line that resonated so well within me, that every time I think about it - it becomes all the more true. If you are not familiar with this line, this was from Blade Runner 2049, the part when Rick and K had a talk after their fight.

There are a lot of factors that are at play that cause why I feel what I feel.

At this very moment when I am writing this, Blade Runner 2049 is playing in the background. Multiple emotions are welling up in me, but mostly it is of anger, nostalgia and regret.

Anger in a sense that I always think what could've been. You can say that this is a denial of what has happened, of what is real.

Nostalgia in a sense that when I recall and reflect what was once was simple yet beautiful, complicated yet easy.

Regret in a sense thinking that I could've done something. Something better. Something that could've changed. Could've.

But, regret is a thought, an arrogance welling inside of me thinking that I could've controlled the outcome. Thinking and looking deeper into the state, despite the hurt, I can say with certainty that things are meant to be this way. It's the design of the grand scheme of the happenings of every day lives. An outcome of every decision I made.

Regret only comes after every decision made. In the same way, happiness comes after every decision made.

In each and every decision we make, in every outcome of those - God will always be with us. Ask for His help, ask for His mercy to see everything through, to be granted the strength to accept reality.

But, best of all, surrender to His will. Let Him take over.